First of all….. SORRY …. I know I might not have been the best friend during the last couple of weeks as I ve been crazy busy, sometimes being up for 40 hours straight and felt like fainting a couple of times, well I guess, just like Germany ;)
It s just other occupations here.
Now school is over though, so everything should be back to normal and I will have more time to keep everyone up to date to answer emails and everything else you want to know.
Ok so now to what has happened within the last 6 weeks, with all its ups and downs.
I finished all my papers, assignments and readings, 1st grade I already got is a B =)
And you guys know how I write all my papers… yes 1-2 days max per paper, so yes was a busy two weeks as they were all due within 8 days actually.
AIESEC has probably been even more time consuming then classes. After organizing the Corporate Breakfast, which was a success except for some attendance issues and also being involved in our speed dating (next semester) and coat check events and several other events like marketing calls and National Conference preparation, which I am actually still working on I also did a presentation on Germany last Saturday and a lot of people seemed interested in at least visiting, which would be great. I did it together with one of the many German AIESECers Matthias. Unfortunately most of them are going back already, so this week is a week of farewells. It is going to be hard once I go back in febuary, I remember my goodbye in Korea, it must be really hard for them right now.
Speaking of goodbye´s.
I broke up with my girlfriend. I was glad we broke up in a friendly way though and we are still in contact and I hope once I go back to Germany we will still be friends. We will find out I guess. It s never an easy time. I think it also told me a lesson though. I am really not good at long distance relationships at all.
Oh btw.. some of you worried about my roommate and me… we are fine now… we kind of had a rough time, but I think we are ok now. So no worries there.
I also had 2 visits during the last couple of weeks. My dad was here for less than a day actually on his way to Toronto, unfortunately on that day the weather was really bad, but it was good to see him, even though it was very short and I had to stay up all night finishing work, but I could sleep in the afternoon, when he left.
Also last week Julia was here. It had been 3.5 months since we seen, pretty long. It was good to see her again and I felt bad, because I was supposed to have more time this week, but there were just too many things coming up, with my final papers, AIESEC and internship etc.. more to that later.
We had a good time shopping to and again I found out…yes you can see Halifax in 2 days. We had crazy snow too, but we also went to a funny brewery tour and watched lots of movies, which I passed out on half of the time. But still good times =)
We also went to the gym.. my first time in like…I don’t know.. way too long and I felt it, I almost threw up, but oh well I hope to be able to go again today if I m not too tired, because I also have a meeting later tonight and a farewell party after, but I should have a really fun day Wednesday, but more on that after, because it is a surprise.
Oh yes with AIESEC of course there was not only work, but we also had some fun events… a chinese dinner, we went to a hockey game and of course all those parties, ok sounds like there were 30…haha…it was only a couple but still good times, although too many drunken people… LOL
I also got two awards from AIESEC, yeah….they really appreciate my work, although I m not sure if they do not overrate it, because I am not doing that much, although,… haha with the time I have you guys will probably say, yes you do..
I guess just what ever I do I give 120%
Now coming back to the Internship, for some this might be bad or sad news, for others they might be happy… not sure..
So I will be going to Indonesia for a 3 month internship from march to june and will teach english there and also lead projects in cooperation with 12 ngo´s.
Its what I want to do, because International Development is one of the two branches I am thinkin about to have as a future job and Indonesia has been my focus in my studies back home in Frankfurt, so it should be a good chance to go and find out if that is what I want to do. Right after I will hopefully go to Korea and work as a Volunteer for another 3 months, and hopefully also visit my family there.
My friends here have really motivated me to learn korean and indonesian again and I hope I will be able to keep this motivation floating. So yes I will pretty much be gone for the summer,
Which unfortunately probably also means no baseball this year, which really sucks, as baseball has always been a huge part of my life and I was also offered a spot on a 2. league team, which I probably wouldn’t have taken anyways, although it really made me think about going there, so you never know, if it hadnt been for that internship, but maybe in 2008 when our new field in Kriftel should also be ready I will come back, maybe healthier and stronger than before, who knows…
I feel kind of bad for leaving Germany for so long and I will only be home for like 2 weeks, so I guess within a timeframe of 14 months I will only be home for like 2 weeks, which is kind of bad. Hope once I finally will settle back in I will still have my friends there and I feel bad for being such a bad friend and chosing my path, but I think it is something that I have to figure out right now in order to find out where my life is taking me and I hope all of you will understand.
Reflecting on Canada…
Looking back on the 4 months I have been here now… Yes it has definitely been a good time, I have learned a lot from my friends, I have grown even more mature, although sometimes I feel like I should stop growing for a while, because I worry too much about things in the future, but on the other hand I am glad about that fact.
I am also glad I have met so many people from so many different cultures and continents and I hope to be able to see all of them again one day, although I know I will probably only see a bunch of them again, even if I came back to Halifax in a couple of years they would probably all have left and be spread out over the globe, but its always possible we will see again and I hope so. Especially my closer friends, hope to really meet them again.
I also think it is different here, because most of them are in there regular environment, except for a couple of visiting students, but its not like Korea, where people only came for a summer. I think even if we would get all the people from Korea back together it wouldn’t be the same. It was just a magical summer back then and it is probably not possible to repeat it.
Anyways I think I should let you guys go now…it has been a long talk this time, but I promise next time it will not take 6 weeks till I post again….
And my next post will probably include a little more detail on all the people I hang out with, so it should also have some fun fact in there and hopefully some pictures… =)
Now its time for me to go to bed though, because its 7am again and I have a meeting at 12…haha…..enough of the ups and downs…..
Ok thanks for reading this…just a final quote from one of my fav. Movies “Antowne Fisher”
Jerome Davenport: "Who will cry for the little boy, lost and all alone / Who will cry for the little boy, abandoned without his own"
Antwone Fisher: "Who will cry for the little boy, he cried himself to sleep / Who will cry for the little boy, who never had it for keeps / Who will cry for the little boy, who walked on burning sands / Who will cry for the little boy, the boy inside a man / Who will cry for the little boy, who knew well hurt and pain / Who will cry for the little boy, who died and died again / Who will cry for the little boy, a good boy he tried to be / Who will cry for the little boy, who cries inside of me"
